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For my devoted readers...

Which include Courtney, Michael and Thomas…among many more am I right? I decided that a comback blog is better than doing summer psychology homework right now.

Curt and I saw 500 Days of Summer (mostly because Curt is in love with Zooey) and it ended up being a pretty feel good movie, and more “realistic” than say, A Walk to Remember perhaps? (although she actually dies, so you have to give them credit for that). The next day Curt followed up this statement with “it’s not like you’re going to meet someone at 16 and be happy every day for the rest of your life.” It’s like not we started dating when I was 16, thx. He told me to blog about this, so it’s legit. The movie had just enough quirky, funny jokes and moments that didn’t make it too depressing, but not unrealistically clever. Definitely worth the movie ticket (unlike Bruno, which I could have waited for DVD).

Tonight my family and I had a bonfire and made smores and it was so relaxing and of course delicious. I felt like my family was semi normal for the first time in my life. And my normal is probably still weird by an other person’s definition. But our living situations have always been so weird, and usually one of my parents is working if not both and my brother is the popular busy bro. We finally had a few minutes to throw a football around, crack jokes (inappropriate ones of course) and all talk which doesn’t seem to happen very often. It just felt right for a change. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love my parents, but things just haven’t always been normal for us. It’s about time they get a break. They’re wonderful wonderful people. Being a little abnormal has given me a little different perspective on life though, and relationships with my parents that most kids don’t have. I’m very lucky for that.

Tomorrow I will be helping clean up my mom’s friend’s house, who’s 3 year old daughter is battling cancer and has been told that she has a month to live. It’s all very sad and I’ll likely cry all day after thinking about it, but I figure it’s the least I can do when they’re going through such a difficult time in their lives. All of the nurses (who work with the mom, Christine) are giving up their vacation time to donate to help keep Christine’s health insurance and somewhat cover the costs and give her some time to grieve without any additional worries. No parent should ever have to deal with something so devastating, but it’s incredible to see her co-workers, neighbors, friends and family pull together. Maybe this is where I start praying?

Mates of State

So cute.

Quick Re-cap?

I feel like I haven’t blogged much lately…and mostly because I haven’t. Because as Scott Olstad would say, tumblrs aren’t actually for blogging (so maybe I should try something new…). I feel like I have been worn out the last few weeks, but that I’ve also done nothing at the same time; hopefully that means I have a good balance goin on for me.

I feel like school is winding down and getting so busy at the same time, only 6 weeks left! But that also means my summer job search needs to get more productive, I should start my online abnormal psychology, and I will be moving twice in the next few months. But this also means flip flops, not being the palest person on campus and more outdoor activities (hopefully including running outside!) First we have to get through this predicted snow storm and maybe we’ll all be happy again.

I have been craving a trip this summer…whether to somewhere big and exciting or somewhere in the U.S. that I feel like I need to experience still. Hoping I have enough money by August to do one of the two. This all is dependent on the summer job :/. I know my itch is being encouraged by Minnesota winters, dorm life and college work, but I would love to experience something new this summer. I also was thinking about how it would be a great idea to work overnights somewhere this summer so I can lay outside and sleep during the day…great right?

I am back on my workout regiment, 3-4 times a week! Which makes me feel so much better during the week, and I even feel like it forces me to be more productive because I spent an hour working out rather than pretending to do homework, therefore I’m actually forced to do it? I feel like I work better under pressure. I also would like a punching bag to take out my aggression on…or a pillow, or Curt.

Anyways, the last month or so has been sort of a quick blur, but so enjoyable. Chicago was a nice get a way, but never long enough. Matt and Kim are the cutest humans ever (I know most would disagree, but I just can’t get enough of them)

I’ve also really enjoyed spending time with all of my favorite people lately…ya’ll make me happy :).

proof :)

Home Sweet Home

My favorite part about coming home is the guarenteed meal from Taresas…well and my parents too I guess :). And the fact that my parents are really into Weeds lately and it’s all they watch when I come home. And when my dogs break down the gate when I walk in the door. Somethings just can’t be fulfilled at school and I’m so excited I get to spend the majority of spring break doing this. The bit of it will be spent in/on my way to Chicago with Curt and friends. I’m really excited to be out of town and spend time with some new peeps. And Curty and I won’t have to do homework or work out as our time spent together for the week..not that I’m complaining, we’re pretty spoiled lately, especially after the last 2 years of seeing each other rarely. It’s so nice :)

I also found a place to live next year! I really got scared that I’d be living at home next year (which I wouldn’t mind if I didn’t have to commute.) But it’s a duplex with a few other girls and it’s so cute. I can’t stop thinking about that color to paint my room…or if I even should, it’s bright blue (yez, I know Curtis, u luv blu.) But it’s a huge relief and I think we’ll have a good time, our landlord is Russian! I love him. If you guys have a big sofa you don’t want, I’ll take it off of your hands ;). Off for more episodes of Weeds, Snoop is on the epi.

cute right?

What can you get for 99 cents?

Ask Curt, he just bought “1000 Miles” by Vanessa Carlton for 99 cents. Wow.

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YR A GIRL

So lately being at school has somehow turned me into somewhat of a feminist. Aside from bros being bros, and girls being slutty and shaming the female gender, I have taken a bit of offense from some of the boys that I’m with lately, the biggest one being this boy I work with. Now, I understand being a good co-worker and working hard, but this situation is driving me bananas. I work with this kid that has a tendency to do all of the work and act like a total spazz at all times. This was fine for the first 20 minutes on my first day because it’s all super easy. But he continues to grab things out of my hands, refuse to let me life “heavy” things or do anything without checking every 5 minutes. Like my mom, many people would say oh he’s just being nice, or maybe it’s a cultural thing (he’s from Indonesia), but being fairly independent as a person, it gets very very frustrating and he makes me feel incompetent (at the most simple job EVER). I just keep repeating myself over and over..”I can do it.” But knowing that I do everything better than him keeps me going too :)

The other situation is in my bio lab where I was in a group with 3 other boys. Well, one of them was nice. The other 2 refused to listen to anything I had to say or my input. Maybe he acts this way with all people, but I got the sexist vibe mostly because of being surrounded by so much testosterone competing with each other. I would like to break it to him that if he was so smart and good at bio he would have 1. taken AP bio in high school or 2. he would be going to a better school. So get off your high horse, we’re all equals for now sweetie.

I’ve never been a feminist on any level, nor do I REALLY think I am not, these were more just events that happened in a similar time frame I think. But I do think I am more aware because of them. Sort of like after taking a very deep course about civil rights, I notice acts of racism today and really value the importance of the simple fact that our president is black, regardless of all other factors. This could end up going way off topic so I’ll cut it “short,” but Amurrca, we have a ways to go still :).

The Future of the American Idea

So for my polisci class this semester, we were assigned to read an article “The Future of the American Idea” from The Atlantic, which is where my previous quote about sustainability was from. It’s a collection of essays from people describing their opinion about the subject, and it was so interesting. Anyways, there were an abundance of interesting ideas and I thought ya’ll nerds would like them too :).

“right-wing greed, fear, and hatred have made all of us feel intimidated, fearful, and helpless in the face of terrorist attacks. And, as in the 19th century, we’ve almost lost our democracy.” -Cornel West

“The American idea has become a cruel joke, a blustery and bellicose bodybuilder luridly bulked up on steroids, consequently low on natural testosterone, deranged and myopic, dangerous…American exceptionalism has allowed us to imagine ourselves about anything so constrictive as international law. American exceptionalism makes our imperialism altruistic, our plundering of the world’s resources a healthy exercise of capitalism and ‘free trade.’ -Joyce Carol Oates

“In other words, what if we chose to accept the fact that every few years, despite all reasonable precautions, some hundreds or thousands of us may die in the sort of ghastly terrorist attack that a democratic republic cannot 100 percent protect itself from without subverting the very principles that make it worth protecting? -David Foster Wallace

“Instead, we devote our national conversation to pious phantasmagoria like intelligent design, school prayer, and the problem of gay marriage. We elect presidents and legislators who speak with terrifying certainty about an imaginary God, and with disgraceful ignorance about established society.” -Sam Harris

“America’s founding was based more on biblical principles than any other nation’s on Earth - and that’s the main reason this country has been more blessed by God than any other nation…Who can deny that their basic doctrines of ‘scientific humanism’ or ‘atheistic humanism’ currently dominate public education in America? This, more than any other factor, has relentlessly changed our ‘Christian consensus’ into a ‘secular consensus,’ producing the moral meltdown that is rapidly destroying our people and our nation’s freedoms, integrity, happiness, and even safety.” -Tim LaHaye (never said I agreed with all of them..)

Nerdy..highly recommend it :)

Omfg Spanish

So going into Spanish I was excited because I enjoy learning the language and cultural aspects…but holy eff is it so much work outside of class. And it doesn’t help that it’s online because I hate doing homework via the internet, I memorize things so much better when I write them repeatedly. I guess that’s what I get for a 5 credit class right? At least I only have to take 2 semesters.

I think biology will be my most interesting but difficult classes. I enjoy learning about evolution and why giraffes drink each others pee (to find out if they’re ovulating, duh). And also, they don’t have long necks to reach vegetation, it’s to fight each other…they literally whack each other with their necks. So interesting!

Being back at school has been refreshing because I felt sort of useless over break (minus my motivation to work out). I mean, I loved the time off and it was perfect, but I’m excited about learning new things. I’m working on trying super hard this semester and hoping for the best. Optimism brings good right? Right.

Golden Gopher Basketball is sucking all of the emotion out of me seeing at they lost the last two games in a row. Total bummer. But I still really enjoy watching them play and the vulgar cheers (no thx to eating bbys plz). It’s funny how one sporting event can increase your school spirit x1000000. I’m pretty thankful to be going to college at all, but to go somewhere I really enjoy with my most favorite people is so wonderful. I’m still looking for a job (no, I didn’t get the one I interviewed for, my schedule didn’t work :() and trying to figure out living situation for next year. The anxiety hasn’t even risen yet…yet. :)