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So lately I’ve been having continuous dreams for about two nights each and they’re always super unusual. The first one I had was about my parents moving to Bismark and then the next time we were moved and they enrolled my brother and I in Catholic school. I proceeded to start crying and trying to escape. The next one was about my cousin Neeshell who used to live with us and is super young and super sweet..unfortunately her mom (who also lived with us) was very crazy and basically really ruined the remaining years of high school for me. Anyways, I keep having these dreams that Neeshell is at events that I’m at and she just runs at me and gives me the biggest hug or that she has moved back in with us..and without her mom. I just wake up emotionally exhausted and drained because I actually thought it was true. It’s taken me a while to realize what an impact such a small child had on my life..especially after being gone for quite a while. There was totally something so special about her…and it’s hard to fathom how hard the rest of her life will be in her situation. Ironically enough I came upon a few pictures that were taken when she visted with my grandma early this fall that I forgot about. They make me smile anyways.